Anti-Jillian

Well I tried - for the 800th time... But I simply cannot stand Jillian Michaels. I cant get past this- I don't know what my problem is!!

I have seen people get great results from her DVDs and my own aunt is a Jillian lover but for some reason I want nothing more than to punch her in her ovaries when she is on my tv screen.

I bought Ripped in 30 which is her sequel to the ever popular 30 Day Shred

And while I can feel it working and I know the moves are effective - I cant get past my animosity for this women!!!

And the fact that you must do the same workout for week straight - my annoyance grew with every passing day.

I was literally eye-rolling and cursing at the TV!

So after a week long hiatus from working out(due to illness) - I put on my gear and headed to the living room to get back on the wagon and as I went to my DVDs I realized I was dreading seeing Jillian's face and her comments and her dry jokes and her sticking her boobs in her assistants face and asking her to talk into them.

I quickly re shelved Ripped in 30 and opened up my tried and true Turbo Jam and enjoyed every minute of it!!

So I guess what they say is true - If you don't enjoy the workout you wont do it - So pick something YOU love that's the only way it will be effective. I look forward to seeing Chalene's face and her energy is contagious - She has a personality similar to mine and I feel like I know her!!

So my plan is doing turbo jam for 4 weeks- Then moving on to Turbo Fire - which scares me.

After Turbo Fire - I intend to go back to Insanity and finish it this time - and then I dont know

I feel so LIBERATED

So a couple of weeks ago something inside of me awoken. I began to feel stiflingly buried beneath clutter.
I don't just mean clutter as in a messy house (although that was a part of it) I mean clutter in all aspects of my life.
My head was FILLED with clutter - thoughts, feelings, emotions I was holding on to that were inhibiting me to develop as an adult,wife, mother
My house was filled with clutter of papers and things that had no value or reason for being saved - I just couldn't let go of them
My closet was filled with clutter of clothes that no longer fit or outfits I no longer had any business wearing (I don't think Ill be clubbing any time soon)
My body was filled with clutter of extra lbs that had no business being there - my baby is almost a year old and I should be a lot further in my weight loss

All this clutter kept burying me deeper and deeper inside of myself - I was suffocating under it - I became depressed (but I'm so good at hiding it!!)

And then one day - I realized - I looked at myself from the outside and I was embarrassed.

This is not who I am or want to be. I decided right there I am going to change - IMMEDIATELY

I am on my path to be the person I want to be. That sounds so cliche - but I don't care!

So here is what Ive been doing:

1. Got my diet in check- I have been a member of www.myfitnesspal.com since February and I am just now really starting to get into it- logging daily, connecting with others for moral support, etc and in the past few weeks I have gone from obese (did i just put that on my public blog???) to just overwieght!! I am now less than 10lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight!! And then i'd like to lose another 20 or so lbs after that.

2.Decluttering my home - I have been OBSESSED with organization blogs lately - and its so inspiring to see these ladies in action - I mean this is a wake up call for me because I was never a organized/tidy gal. But I feel sooooo much better getting my home in check - I want to be proud of my living space all the time and not a crazy person running to clean 10 mins before guests come over. A tool most of the orginization bloggers (my new heros) use is a household binder - I created one and I think it will be a great tool for me. Once I finish it up I will post my binder and how I use it.

3.Purging my closet- This I just did last night and it felt AHHMAZING!! It also came at a perfect time, because my town is holding a clothing drive this weekend. I gathered 6 garbage bags from just my closet alone!! Tonight I will tackle Zack and Mikeys clothes. Kyla's stuff is packed away once she grows out of it - Its all mostly hand me downs and will be saved for the next little girl in the family - whether it be mine or someone elses. I also found several high end items (some with tags-some worn once or twice)so I gathered those and will bring them to a consignment shop.

4.Financial Clutter- In other words debt (I hate that dirty d word) My husband and I both made some stupid financial mistakes - not only in the past but in the present -I am mortified beyond belief that we have been living the way we were - and I guess you can say we have hit rock bottom. Admitting you need help is the first step right? Well the past is the past and I cannot unchange it - but moving forward I have a new outlook on our bleak financial future - I have discovered Dave Ramsey and I am reading his book Total Money Makeover. I feel like this is something we can do - and I am beginning to understand the difference between Wants vs. Needs


my next tasks are going to be organizing our new clutter free home and lives. I feel like Im in a really good place mentally right now - I have a new clarity in my mind.

I hope this blog will help be my accountability tool and I will blog often about my progress

Time is flying by

When I looked at Kyla this morning blabbing and standing and walking around the living room - I stopped and thought to myself - When did my little baby become this toddler??

It literally feels like she was just born - but yet in a little over a month she will be a year old. I cant beleive it!!

This year has been like a blink of an eye for me - and I feel like I havent stopped and smelled the roses, So I vow to take the remaining days of 2011 and cherish them

My life has changed so much and so quickly - I didnt take the time to stop and appreciate it.

Watching Kyla grow and learn and develop is so amazing - I still cant believe she is mine and that Michael and I created her.

I just wanted to write a quick note to get that out - When people say it goes by quickly they aint kidding!!!

As I am planning her 1st bday party I am thinking back on the 1st year of her life. It was such a beautiful experience and I am excited to see her grow into a toddler and all the new adventures she will have