Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Bob Byrne - Nice Guy


I am writing today about my Grandpa. He is quite simply the most amazing man I have ever known. He was a Dad to 11 kids - 12 counting me!

My mother was unable to take care of me so my grandparents took custody of me when I was 6 months old. At age 12 they thought they should adopt me - more for legality issues - They never wanted to take the title of parent away from my mom - but for everyone's protection they adopted me.


I love both of my grandparents like they were my parents (maybe a little more than most kids) - Sadly I lost my grandma 12/31/06. She was sick for a while - but was doing better, she went into a medically induced coma and died peacefully in the night. The process before hand was very hard - weeks of hospital visits filled with hope that she would get better -

tears - begging her - making deals with God-more tears -pleading - desperation - tears - heartache

I spent Christmas morning sitting next to her in the hospital - a small radio behind us tuned to 106.7 - playing Christmas music complete silence in the room other than that

I held her hand - I was so devasted- but I knew she would never be coming back. I told her I was sorry for all the times I hurt and disappointed her through my teenage years- I told her how she was my hero - how much I loved her how much EVERYONE loved her - I didnt want her to go - but I knew it was not my choice - and I understood that

That evening we gathered at my uncles for Christmas - we had to put on the happy front for the kids - but everyone knew - it was an unspoken understanding that we will lose the woman who has kept this nutty family together for the past however many years

We promised her to NOT FIGHT and to watch after Grandpa - we knew he'd be lost. We would be there for each other and be strong and get through this

and we did - with almost no fighting

We were more than there for Grandpa - we sometimes bordered on being stage 5 clingers with him

We wanted to hold him so tight so that he would never be sad and we felt like we needed to hold on to him much more since we lost her

Everything we did was to make him happy - We vacationed with him - went to his favorite restaurants - called him to come to every time one of our kids took a poop (kidding, kinda)

He loved every minute of it

So 5 years has gone by .....

I feel like I have dejavu

December 1st 2011 - Grandpa suffered a massive stroke

he hasnt woken up

We are at his side - round the clock in his hospital bed

tears-begging him to wake- tears - praying he comes out of it - tears- losing hope- tears-desperation

Am I jaded from my experience with my grandma? Why do I feel my faith/hope slipping away? I am trying to be strong for those around me - but why is so much harder this time around?? -

I am just kind of blogging my jumbled thoughts right now - I apologize if this is all over the place

Please keep my grandfather and my family in your prayers - I am trying to stay positive and trying to keep my faith up - but its been very hard for me.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Anti-Jillian

Well I tried - for the 800th time... But I simply cannot stand Jillian Michaels. I cant get past this- I don't know what my problem is!!

I have seen people get great results from her DVDs and my own aunt is a Jillian lover but for some reason I want nothing more than to punch her in her ovaries when she is on my tv screen.

I bought Ripped in 30 which is her sequel to the ever popular 30 Day Shred

And while I can feel it working and I know the moves are effective - I cant get past my animosity for this women!!!

And the fact that you must do the same workout for week straight - my annoyance grew with every passing day.

I was literally eye-rolling and cursing at the TV!

So after a week long hiatus from working out(due to illness) - I put on my gear and headed to the living room to get back on the wagon and as I went to my DVDs I realized I was dreading seeing Jillian's face and her comments and her dry jokes and her sticking her boobs in her assistants face and asking her to talk into them.

I quickly re shelved Ripped in 30 and opened up my tried and true Turbo Jam and enjoyed every minute of it!!

So I guess what they say is true - If you don't enjoy the workout you wont do it - So pick something YOU love that's the only way it will be effective. I look forward to seeing Chalene's face and her energy is contagious - She has a personality similar to mine and I feel like I know her!!

So my plan is doing turbo jam for 4 weeks- Then moving on to Turbo Fire - which scares me.

After Turbo Fire - I intend to go back to Insanity and finish it this time - and then I dont know

Friday, November 11, 2011

I feel so LIBERATED


So a couple of weeks ago something inside of me awoken. I began to feel stiflingly buried beneath clutter.
I don't just mean clutter as in a messy house (although that was a part of it) I mean clutter in all aspects of my life.
My head was FILLED with clutter - thoughts, feelings, emotions I was holding on to that were inhibiting me to develop as an adult,wife, mother
My house was filled with clutter of papers and things that had no value or reason for being saved - I just couldn't let go of them
My closet was filled with clutter of clothes that no longer fit or outfits I no longer had any business wearing (I don't think Ill be clubbing any time soon)
My body was filled with clutter of extra lbs that had no business being there - my baby is almost a year old and I should be a lot further in my weight loss

All this clutter kept burying me deeper and deeper inside of myself - I was suffocating under it - I became depressed (but I'm so good at hiding it!!)

And then one day - I realized - I looked at myself from the outside and I was embarrassed.

This is not who I am or want to be. I decided right there I am going to change - IMMEDIATELY

I am on my path to be the person I want to be. That sounds so cliche - but I don't care!

So here is what Ive been doing:

1. Got my diet in check- I have been a member of www.myfitnesspal.com since February and I am just now really starting to get into it- logging daily, connecting with others for moral support, etc and in the past few weeks I have gone from obese (did i just put that on my public blog???) to just overwieght!! I am now less than 10lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight!! And then i'd like to lose another 20 or so lbs after that.

2.Decluttering my home - I have been OBSESSED with organization blogs lately - and its so inspiring to see these ladies in action - I mean this is a wake up call for me because I was never a organized/tidy gal. But I feel sooooo much better getting my home in check - I want to be proud of my living space all the time and not a crazy person running to clean 10 mins before guests come over. A tool most of the orginization bloggers (my new heros) use is a household binder - I created one and I think it will be a great tool for me. Once I finish it up I will post my binder and how I use it.

3.Purging my closet- This I just did last night and it felt AHHMAZING!! It also came at a perfect time, because my town is holding a clothing drive this weekend. I gathered 6 garbage bags from just my closet alone!! Tonight I will tackle Zack and Mikeys clothes. Kyla's stuff is packed away once she grows out of it - Its all mostly hand me downs and will be saved for the next little girl in the family - whether it be mine or someone elses. I also found several high end items (some with tags-some worn once or twice)so I gathered those and will bring them to a consignment shop.

4.Financial Clutter- In other words debt (I hate that dirty d word) My husband and I both made some stupid financial mistakes - not only in the past but in the present -I am mortified beyond belief that we have been living the way we were - and I guess you can say we have hit rock bottom. Admitting you need help is the first step right? Well the past is the past and I cannot unchange it - but moving forward I have a new outlook on our bleak financial future - I have discovered Dave Ramsey and I am reading his book Total Money Makeover. I feel like this is something we can do - and I am beginning to understand the difference between Wants vs. Needs


my next tasks are going to be organizing our new clutter free home and lives. I feel like Im in a really good place mentally right now - I have a new clarity in my mind.

I hope this blog will help be my accountability tool and I will blog often about my progress

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Time is flying by

When I looked at Kyla this morning blabbing and standing and walking around the living room - I stopped and thought to myself - When did my little baby become this toddler??

It literally feels like she was just born - but yet in a little over a month she will be a year old. I cant beleive it!!

This year has been like a blink of an eye for me - and I feel like I havent stopped and smelled the roses, So I vow to take the remaining days of 2011 and cherish them


My life has changed so much and so quickly - I didnt take the time to stop and appreciate it.

Watching Kyla grow and learn and develop is so amazing - I still cant believe she is mine and that Michael and I created her.

I just wanted to write a quick note to get that out - When people say it goes by quickly they aint kidding!!!

As I am planning her 1st bday party I am thinking back on the 1st year of her life. It was such a beautiful experience and I am excited to see her grow into a toddler and all the new adventures she will have

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

I love FALL!!!

I just want to shout from the rooftops - how much i looooove fall!!! I used to be such a summer gal - but now i most definitely prefer fall. I love the crisp weather I love the fall fashion- sweaters, uggs, leggings, tall boots etc I love the family activities - apple picking, pumpkin picking, Halloween,Thanksgiving I love the feeling of a fresh start- i guess that is from my school years I also love fall tv!! Last nights new fall line up on Fox did not let me down - Glee Although I am sad to see Sam not back at Mckinley - I am excited for the fresh faces. I also am in love with Blake and super excited he will be more of a main character! What was up with Quinns "new look" ?? Did anyone else notice Courtney Galliano from SYTYCD??? LOVE HER!!! I hope she has a reoccurring role! The New Girl This show looks like it will be HILARIOUS!! I was cracking up the entire time!! Zoey Deschanel is so funny and plays the role perfectly Raising Hope Never fails me!! that show cracks me up!! and Hope is getting so big!!!! Burt is my fave charcter on that show as well as Mawmaw So that is my ode to fall - I cant wait for the rest of the Season premiers this week!! Xfactor is tonight ! woo hoo oh and i had this
Another reason I LOVE FALL

Friday, September 9, 2011

I suck at blogging!!!

Hey everyone -
I just wanted to write a post to let you know how much I suck at blogging !!!

I don't know why but I just do. I alway forget to blog when cool things happen

Now blogger has come out with an iPhone app - so you may be hearing from me more often. Since I am running out of excuses.

I guess a quick update is in order since I haven't blogged in MONTHS!!

Kyla is 8 months old - she gets more amazing everyday. I cant believe hoe much she has stolen my heart.

She started crawling right as she turned 7 months and now she pulls her self up and is cruising all over the place. She learned to climb the stairs much to my dismay.
She still has no teeth but her hair is starting to grow. It's just so dang blonde it's hard to see

She can say "mama" "dada" baba" and "nomnom"

She is the light in my heart. And she is a total daddy's girl!!

We pulled her out of daycare bc it was too expensive so she is home with daddy all day long :)

Ok now an update on my weightloss journey. I never finished insanity. It became sooo hard to find the time to fit the workout in. I plan to pick it up again. I just don't know when I can squeeze that time in. It's a big commitment and with work and a baby I just couldn't do it.

I'm back on weight watchers - going to meeting and so far so good.

I tried HOT YOGA and it is awesome. Would love to do that once a week.

My goal for the fall/winter is to become more organized.

Ok I guess you are all caught up now. I will try and get back soon!!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Rolling With My Homies


This just in.....

Kyla can now roll from tummy to back AND back to tummy!!!!

She rolled from tummy to back the first time when she was 3 months old

She rolled from back to tummy on sat 4/30 - today she decided she really enjoys rolling around her daddy said she has been doing it all day!

video to follow!!!

PS - why is my baby girl growing up so fast :(

I have gone INSANE

Mikey and I started the Insanity Workout last Monday - and I am convinced in doing so we have lost our minds.

They don't call this Insanity for nothing!! It is the most intense workout I have ever seen!

Ive never done a workout where the people in the video are dropping like flies - I am dripping in sweat and clutching to my chest by the time the first 5 mins have gone by and that is just THE WARMUP!!!!!

Nevertheless - We are on week 2 and I already feel stronger!

I love that I am doing this with Mikey - usually in the evenings he would be up in his office on the computer and i would be downstairs and we really didnt hang out - Now we have a standing date every night to get our butts kicked by Shaun T - romantic isnt it?? LOL



Here are my 1st fit test results:
switch kicks 30
power jacks 31
power knees 46
power jumps 10
globe jumps 9
suicide jumps 8
push up jacks 5
low plank oblique 20

We do another fit test 5/16/11 - So ill post my results then.

We started week 2 this monday and it doesnt get any easier - in fact we both noticed it seems a bit harder this week

If you are interested in joining in on the Insanity - check out my website you can get it there


Sunday, March 13, 2011

The Shakeology 3-Dy Cleanse

I'm starting this tommorow - most people lose between 3-7lbs. Ask me how you can get Shakeology.
The Science Behind the Shakeology 3-Day Cleanse
by Steve Edwards, Director of Results
I like to call the Shakeology 3-Day Cleanse a “performance cleanse.” This is because it was designed to be done with a workout program. Let’s take a look at how this differs from other cleanses, how to tailor it to your needs, and what to expect if you decide to try it.
First of all, it’s not a true cleanse. It’s a calorie-restricted and nutrient-dense diet plan. Traditional cleanses contain very few calories and nutrients. Compared to the much more popular Master Cleanse, it’s like an all-you-can-eat buffet. Traditional cleansing diets are done to rid your system of toxins and bring it into homeostasis. They also contain a spiritual aspect. This process can take a long time, which is why you may have seen coworkers walking around the office in a zombie-like state for weeks on end—swilling a strange concoction of lemons and maple syrup.
The Shakeology cleanse is nothing like that. Depending on how you decide to do it, you’ll be eating frequently and consuming between 800 and 1,200 calories per day, and it could be even more should you feel the need. The point of this cleanse is not calorie restriction, per se—it’s nutrient efficiency. The aim is to get the most nutrients possible into the fewest number of calories. The goal is to put all of these calories to use as a part of your exercise program, to rid your body of undigested foods and toxins, and to bring your hydration levels into homeostasis. The result you’re after is not weight loss—though it will likely occur—but for your body to be running more efficiently. This should make you feel lighter and more energetic, even though you’re doing an exercise program.
How It Works
Your eating structure doesn’t change. You still eat every few hours while you’re awake. Each meal should have a balance of proteins, carbohydrates, fats, and fiber. And while you’re not eating as much food as you’d normally eat, your calorie-to-nutrient ratio is extremely high. This means that you shouldn’t restrict the actual nutrients you’re getting by too much, so activity can continue as normal.
We recommend you try to keep your shakes to just Shakeology. Adding fruits of any kind, or seeds (for fat and fiber), or the Shakeology Fiber supplement, can and should be done as you see fit.
Ditto for your one solid meal—a salad. As we all know from any salad bar, the definition of salad can be varied. The goal of the salad in the plan is to keep your calories coming from natural sources (no artificial ingredients should be added, including artificial salad dressing). Aside from that, you can add ingredients as necessary. Keep your meat intake to four ounces or less, but add veggies, seeds, nuts, fruits, and legumes in quantities to satiate you.
The goal of the Shakeology 3-Day Cleanse is to optimize your performance. You want to eat enough to fuel your day AND your workout. The foods you’re eating are so high in fiber and nutrients that it’s virtually impossible to overeat. You’ll be consuming so much fiber, along with enzymes and digestive aids, that your body’s ability to flush excess foods quickly will be at its peak.
What to Drink
Water, of course, is recommended in quantity. This is vital to any cleanse, because one of your goals is to bring your hydration into homeostasis. When your electrolytes are out of balance—the main problem we have is salt—you often retain water outside of your cells. This situation, which we refer to as retaining water, is cured by drinking more water. As the excess salts are diffused, your body begins to hydrate your cells (using sodium as it should be used) and flush the water held outside the cells. So, oddly enough, you drink water to eliminate water retention.
Sodas, alcohols, juices, etc., should be eliminated entirely during a cleanse. Coffee and tea, which are diuretics, should be minimized at the very least and eliminated if possible. Again, performance is the key, so if you need a cup of Joe as a pick-me-up, go ahead. Just use only as needed, and don’t use additives. Eliminating sugar and chemicals is vital. However, do not use energy drinks or soda for this purpose, including the ones with artificial sweeteners. Coffee drinkers may find that switching to black tea during a cleanse will give you the energy you’re looking for with less upset. Coffee’s acidic nature can heighten the effects in a negative way during your cleanse.
Why You Won’t Lose Weight
I should say why you might not lose weight, but I wanted to get your attention. Most people will lose some weight during a cleanse, but that is not the goal. Those with a lot of undigested gunk in their systems will lose weight as it’s flushed out. Those of you who are properly hydrated and already eat well are less likely to lose. For those of you who need to lose weight, take heart: you are setting up your system to use nutrients more efficiently and improving your ability to lose weight through structured diet and exercise. So while you may not lose much on the cleanse, you’ll be more prepared to lose weight later.
Another reason why we don’t always lose weight on cleanses is due to a stress hormone called cortisol. Restricting calories is stressful to the body, and it reacts by releasing cortisol. Cortisol is performance-enhancing in the short term, but if you somehow keep your body stressed for long periods, it creates havoc in your system and can cause you to doggedly hang onto weight in a type of survival mode. We don’t want this to occur, which is one reason the Shakeology 3-Day Cleanse is short. It’s important not to remain in a highly calorie-deficient state for long periods of time, especially when you are trying to exercise hard.
Here is the full plan:
The Shakeology® 3-Day Cleanse
The key is to follow the same regimen all three days.
Essentials:
3 Shakeology shakes per day
2 cups of green tea per day
1 or 2 pieces of fruit per day (optional)
1 salad for dinner—can include fish or poultry
No dairy or extra sugars (this includes almond and soy milk)!
Drink 2 to 4 liters of water every day
Only use low-fat dressings, and go easy on the salt and/or pepper to taste
2 snacks before/after any of the major meals (breakfast, lunch, and dinner)
Fruit is optional, and it is discouraged (however, some of you will need the calories while others may not)
Power-workout participants (those who are already super conditioned) are recommended the higher numbers of calories
For maximum results, do NOT use additives
Dinner salad may include WHITE GRILLED PROTEIN—poultry or fish only
Daily Regimen:
1 cup of green tea to start the day
Breakfast:
1 scoop Shakeology (140 calories)
1/2 cup of fruit (60 to 90 calories)—optional
Ice to taste
8 to10 oz. of water
Snack 1 (85 calories):
1 piece of fruit (apple, pear, orange, banana mango, etc.)
Lunch:
1 scoop Shakeology (140 calories)
Ice to taste
8 to 10 oz. of water
1 cup of green tea or a detox tea
Snack 2: (you can have the second snack before or after dinner)
1 scoop Shakeology (140 calories)
Ice to taste
8 to10 oz. of water
Dinner: Salad with grilled white fish or poultry (roughly 340 calories)
Greens—3 servings of vegetables, plus 4 oz. of grilled white meat (fish or poultry)
2 tablespoons of dressing—no more!
Shakeology 3-Day Cleanse FAQ
Here are the answers to some of the most commonly asked questions:
1. How many calories per day?
800 to 1,100 calories per day
2. How often can I do the Shakeology 3-Day Cleanse?
Ideally, you should do it once per quarter (every 3 months)
As the seasons change
Before starting a new workout program
When you feel you need help breaking through a plateau.
3. Should/Can I still do my workouts during the Cleanse?
Depends on the individual
You’ll have less energy than normal, so consider doing it during a recovery week
Try not to do in the middle of P90X® or INSANITY®
4. Can I do a 1-day or a 2-day cleanse instead of a 3-day?
Yes! Some people will see results with one or two days
We recommend against continuing the cleanse for more than three days
5. Should/Can I take other Beachbody® supplements during the Cleanse?
Results and Recovery Formula™: No, too much sugar/calories
Others (Omega-3, etc.): Not necessary, but won’t hurt either

Friday, January 28, 2011

Got the go ahead


Had my 6 week follow up appoinment today, and I got the green light to exercise! Im so excited - Ive missed Chalene and TurboJam!!!

I will keep updating my with my results and let me know if anyone wants to join meeeeeeee

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Saying goodbye to the baby weight

So my precious princess has arrived...

But now I am left with this icky flabby body. Being that beachbody products have helped me reach my goals in the past - It was the clear cut choice for me to go back to them because for me they are tried and true.

I have used Slim in ,Turbojam, Chalean Extreme, Hip Hop Abs and Just got insanity. I knew I would need some extra motivation this time so I decided to become a Coach!!!!!!!

I have my 6 week check up on Wed and once i get the go ahead from my dr - i am starting up my fitness journey. I am going to start with Turbo Jam - because I LOOOOVE it and I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE Chaelene Johnson.

I will update this blog with my progress in my fitness and also how i am doing as a coach

wish me luck - i have a long journey ahead of me

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Kyla Rae Perry has Arrived!!!!!!!!!!

Cuddle Up Pink Birth Announcement
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